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We Found Her Resting Place

Yesterday was tough, I've had tough days in grief. I find myself facing them better and better as the years go on and I know she would be proud of me for that.
Through laughter and tears we found the perfect place to lay my Mom's ashes. 
I share this personal side that way there isn't another 25 year old girl sitting at the computer searching, pleading for someone to tell her she isn't alone in being motherless.
The young girl begging someone to tell her what her grief will look like in a few months or years. Someone to tell her she can face tough days in her grief because she is strong.
I want someone that is deep in the trenches of grief and can't see the light to see that there is hope and joy in grief and life is beautiful after your loss.
Here is the reality, there is a chance you or someone you know has lost a parent or someone they love dearly too soon. The reality is this will be you one day and I pray it's years from now and that you have so many happy memories with your Mom. The truth is that no matter how long you get with them it's never enough and all roads lead to moments like this in your life. 
Grief is real, it's messy, it's hard, it's beautiful.
I'm surrounded by so much love and so many amazing people because of my grief. People that knew my Mom, people that lost their Mom and people that just simply want to walk the journey with me just because. 
All because of my Mom
There is so much more I'm going to face on this journey but my goodness I'm thankful for every minute of it. I'm thankful she was and always will be my Mom even if it doesn't look the way I envisioned it. 

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