My day will look different than yours tomorrow
Tomorrow you will wake up and your Mom will still be here. The nightmare and fear of her not being there are just a distant thought. You will go through your day knowing at any point you can pick up the phone to call her. You know a listening ear and judgment free zone is just a phone call away. Tomorrow you will wake up and know that you can get in your car or get on a plane to be greeted by her warm hug and a thousand I love you's.
Tomorrow you will wake up and know something I don't, you will know what it's like to have your Mom.
Tomorrow I will wake up and count down the days, minutes and hours make up six years to find out how long I've been without mine. Tomorrow I will wake up and be reminded that it wasn't a bad dream but it became my reality six years ago tomorrow. Tomorrow I'll wake up and know I can't pick up the phone and hear her voice on the other end no matter how many times I dial her number. Tomorrow I will wake up and know she will never answer my calls. Tomorrow I will wake up and face the reality once again like I have for six years that I can't drive to her house or get on a plane to reach her because nothing travels as far as Heaven.
Tomorrow I will wake up and know something you don't, I will know what it's like not to have my Mom.
You will go about your weeks, months and years always knowing she is there. It will be automatic to invite her to events, plan holidays with her and include her in your life.
I'll go about my weeks, months and years no longer knowing that feeling of her simply being there. She won't be on the invitation list, she won't be addressed in the holiday cards and she won't be included in my life.
Tomorrow I will wake up and be hit with the reality that for six years and for forever I will have that constant reminder of my reality. A constant reminder of the one day out of all the others that changed my life forever.
Tomorrow when you wake up and you read this and can't understand this feeling or reality, go hug your Mom. Go call your Mom. Go tell your Mom you love her because my tomorrow could become your tomorrow any day.