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Family Secrets In Grief

I’ve been keeping a secret for over a year now
One my mom kept from me for many, many years and took with her to the grave
One she told my grandmother about before she passed and asked my grandmother to tell me only when she felt I was ready to know it
A secret she kept to protect not only me but others
A secret I am now ready to share with you because I might need your help on this journey
As far back as I can remember I’ve always felt as though a part of me was missing. I never knew what it was until my grandmother told me this secret and it all made sense
This secret was important now because after losing so many key people in my life
The secret is that I have siblings that I have never met, siblings that might not even know I exist from my father
Siblings I am on a mission to find and have in my life, to be surrounded by more family because that’s what matters the most
As you can imagine my whole world went for a spin when I found this out and people that once were strangers could be potential siblings
So here I am sharing this secret with you, this hope in my grief and this journey
In just a few days I will be taking the Ancestry DNA test and starting there
I hope you will join me on this journey and see where it leads me
You never know, you might be the sibling I am searching for!


  1. So glad to see a post from you. I needed to re-read some of your posts today. You see, my dad passed away this time last year making be an adult orphan. My mom passed away 32 years ago from a brain tumor. I was 14 years old. Last week I was told I have a brain tumor. I am roughly the same age as my mom was and though I know things have drastically changed in the last 3 decades I am still scared. I smile at my family and say I'm fine but I'm not fine. I want to be healthy and not worried that something is growing inside me that can kill me. I never had children and now I'm glad because I don't want to leave behind the legacy of a motherless child to another. It's a painful and crappy way to grow up. Last week my younger brother had heart surgery and had a stint put in. He is the last of my immediate family and very precious to me. I hope you find your lost siblings because they will help you fill that hole you are missing.


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