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So God Made A Motherless Daughter

He knew there would need to be someone who would be strong enough to carry the weight of the grief without her here. Someone that would be able to feel pain of grief so deep that she felt at times like it would break her but would keep going
So God made a motherless daughter
He knew she would need to be someone that was willing to face the days knowing she would never hear her moms voice again or feel the warmth of her hugs. Someone that could still find the beauty in each day even when life had shown her the darkest of valleys in her grief. Someone that would one day be able to show others that even the distance between heaven and earth can’t stop a mother’s love
So God made a motherless daughter
He knew he would need to have someone that was willing to sit with the broken and the hurting even when she was hurting from missing her own mom so much. Someone that wouldn’t be afraid to help someone else face their own grief. Someone that would be brave enough to say “me too” when someon…

My Mom Died But She's Still With Me

The day your mom dies, you will start wondering and questioning things you never imagined you would. Things you couldn't even think about before she died and probably never would have until after you lost her. 
You’ll wonder where she is a million times a day from the very second she leaves and all the minutes after she’s gone
You’ll wonder if she’s somewhere nearby or really far away because sometimes you can feel it both ways

One minute you have to catch your breath because you feel her so near it’s as if you could touch her. You wake up from a dream and feel as if you just spent time with her
Then the next it’s as if you can’t feel her at all. It’s as if the day she left she went so far away that you can’t even make your memories remember the feel of her hug or the warmth in her silence
You’ll wonder if she hears you when the tears are falling so hard and you can’t catch your breath to call her name, but you’ll wonder if she hears you through the tears
You’ll wonder if she knows how…

Some of the Best Grandpas Live in Heaven

Some of the best Grandpas live in Heaven


That’s what I have to tell my son’s when they ask where Papa lives and if we can go to his house just once to see what it’s like there


I have to tell them that Papa would be here if he could to hug them, to kiss them, to hold them but instead God asked Papa to come live in heaven with Him


He promised he would have the best seat in the house from up above to watch you grow, learn and be loved


He promised that he would never be forgotten or replaced because He asked his daughter to make sure of that


I don’t want the weight of grief to be heavy in this house


But I do I want them to know they will lose people. People they love, people that are important to them, people that have shaped their lives and changed their days. People that they will long for hugs and kisses from and people they will pray for just one more phone call from, one that won’t ever come but they’ll pray for it still and hope that one day it will


But I also want th…

You'll Search For Her

And when she dies you’ll search for her no matter how long she’s been gone

You’ll search for her the minute she leaves right there in that very room

You’ll search the sky

You’ll search online

You’ll search group forums

You’ll search old messages

You’ll search old text messages

You’ll search old letters

You’ll search old cards

You’ll search for her

You’ll search old high school yearbooks

You’ll search old photo albums

You’ll search the memories of old friends

You’ll search her things

You’ll even search the crowds

Even though someone told you she’s gone, you’ll still search for her

And when you are walking down the aisle, when your baby is born and when the holidays come around, you’ll search the room for her

When the days are hard and when they are good

When the times are difficult and when they are so good that pure joy is filling your soul

When you are sitting on your back porch trying to sort out all your problems you’ll look over because even if for a minute you’ll be searching for…

My Mom Died But I'll Always Talk About Her

My Mom died but I'll keep talking about her

I guess I was never one to wrap my head around the fact that once someone dies we stop talking about them, we stop saying someone's name, we start acting like they never existed at all

That's when we start making grief uncomfortable

I talk about my Mom all the time, I share her memory, I say her name, I share her pictures and talk about ”Nana” to my sons as if she's still here because the truth is, as long as I keep talking about her, the longer her memory stays alive. The day I stop talking about her is the day she really dies

I don't want my sons or anyone around me to think that just because my Mom no longer lives this side of heaven that it means we have to act like her time here on Earth never happened

In fact I want people that don't know my Mom is gone to hear me talk about her so much that they would think she is still here with us today because in my heart, she is still right here

Just because my Mom died it …

Some of the Best Grandmas live in Heaven

Some of the best Grandmas live in heaven


That’s what I have to tell my son’s when they ask where Nana lives and if we can go to her house just once to see what it’s like there


I have to tell them that Nana would be here if she could to hug them, to kiss them, to hold them but instead God asked her to come live in heaven with Him


He promised her the best seat in the house from up above to watch you grow, learn and be loved


He promised her that she would never be forgotten or replaced because He asked her daughter to make sure of that


I don’t want the weight of grief to be heavy in this house


But I do I want them to know they will lose people. People they love, people that are important to them, people that have shaped their lives and changed their days. People that they will long for hugs and kisses from and people they will pray for just one more phone call from, one that won’t ever come but they’ll pray for it still


But I also want them to know that just because we los…